Everyone has fears.
Many of us have overcome our fears, Some of us, has not.
for me, My biggest fear, is Loneliness and Silence.
Those of you who know me pretty well,
what do you think of me? Outgoing? Overly-Positive? Friendly? Relaxed?
Yeah, maybe that's what I am, only thing is...
it's not really who I am.
Maybe it's just on the outside, when I have accompany,
maybe when I can be drowned it music or movies...
but. Every night, and Every day. There are these moments.
when you only feel total emptiness. Nobody is talking to you,
Nothing is there for you to hear. It's that kind of thing. that Makes me fear so much.
Nothing hurts more than waiting; Especially when you don't know what
you are waiting for anymore.....
Really? Is there really a loophole deep down, that is absorbing
away all the glee and strength away while there is nothing to pull
it back out? I don't know... And I don't wish to know....
But this fear... everyday it makes me feel worse. And worse. And worse.
I worry that I would break down anytime, but...
there isn't really a reason to break down. It's just that silence in your heart....
Can there be a salvation for this?
The stitches that once repaired this wound has opened to deep dark madness.
Music and Movies might drown the feelings, but... How many times can you withstand
repeating them over again? It doesn't really work right?
I'd just try, to feel alive again. Like how carefree any pre-school kid can be.
The new kinds or mental attacks, are no longer casted by anyone. But by this fear...
Can someone actually save me?
I need your help.
Fear... aka Fuck Everything And Run.
But.. what is everything? And what is there to run from?
when there is only nothing left and nothing to begin with?
I believe... Someday. I can be free. But I know, that this fear,
is now just going to stay with me.
Sincerely,
Fear